The last few nights have been a bit rough in regards to the sleeping patterns for our girls. With our pending move, I’m not real sure this is the root, or teeth coming in, or what – but it seems that Adele and Ruth sure don’t mind not sleeping.
It’s been a furious stretch on Abby since she typically hears the girls first as I can sleep through most anything (I’ve slept through two earthquakes). This being said, when Abby has done all that she can do, it then turns to me to slide in and take the reigns of help.
Since I’m an early riser, naturally I take on the early morning duties. Not that big of a deal, because the hours between 4-6AM are pretty quiet in the world. It’s one of the best moment of the day I believe, of clarity and vision. But it isn’t a huge burden to fill the gaps and bring aid by letting Abby sleep.
At any rate, last night may have been one of the more troubling nights with Ruth in a while. You hold her, she is fine – you think about setting her down, she’s a hot mess. So, when Abby asked me if I could give the Ruth train a ride, I picked her up, held her and started humming a song – she was out. As I considered putting her back in the bed, she would scream like I’d personally abandoned her. Very humbling moments…
As I was sitting and rocking and humming I paused and thought – “Sometimes all we can do is be held and rocked by Jesus.”
We don’t need more Bible studies just as Ruth didn’t need any more food.
We don’t need to confess sin just as Ruth did not have a dirty diaper.
Sometimes we just needed to be held.
Often, nothing will calm us but the Never-ceasing, Always-Present, Faithful, Constant, Fervent, Loving One; Jesus.
And that’s what He provides. That is who He is. That is what He can accomplish. Unlike us, Jesus is always willing and waiting and patient to hold us. Too often, we refuse His care. I was reminded of this passage from Isaiah 41 as I was holding Ruth:
vs. 10: fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Sometimes, we just need to be held. May you know and trust in His sovereign care.